recovery

ok. i had to stop running at night because it kept me up until 4 am. when you can't sleep, there's nothing to do but worry and drink too much. so now i am running in the mornings. if you're going to get a hangover and make your kids late for school, it should be for something worthwhile that has a good story attached to it. not because you read too many back issues of science. so i had to take a day off from running, and i pretty much slept all the time and took some vitamins. i ran this morning, and i felt pretty good and wide awake all day, but now i am dead on my feet.

i have been worrying about going back to work. my job is going to be a real job, not some kind of impalpable research position like i have only ever known. and it will be fairly high pressure. even though i'll be working for my husband, he'll fire me if i suck, and he won't even say he's sorry. well, maybe he will, but i will still be out of a job.

anyway, this weekend we are going to practice the 5k, and i'll see how i do. all this running keeps my mind from wandering into issues of self-competency. the prospect of a job has also cured my late night sessions of political analysis. that's at least positive, although my friend of the "time is your weakness" blog found my political comments "hysterical". he will have to read the funny papers now. there, i finally put a link in a post. if you look back through fred's stuff, you can eventually find the link to my crappy old 90s pseudo-punk band.