sad day finding my past
where is nellie german?!! i can't find her and i have a nice bad poem for her. god bless her and her facial surgery
where is nellie german?!! i can't find her and i have a nice bad poem for her. god bless her and her facial surgery
it is safe to write anything i want because i think everyone gave up on me. i didn't write for ages and ages and nobody checks to see if i am still breathing.
i haven't checked my blog for a very very long time and i missed postings by the former and still fab bass player of queerdddys, meat-ball! i hang my head in shame. i tried to post to meat-ball's site but it's just an empty storefront. meat-ball, are you out there??!!
i am working 40 hrs a week now and my tearful 4 year old is in daycare. the house is worse than ever and we are eating takeout and vending machine food all the time. it's every bit as bad as i thought it would be and sometimes even worse. but i am a real person again, and i like it. maybe my quirky kids will become axe murderers now that i can't smother them with attention and advice learned from new age child-rearing books. it's the good old school of hard knocks, just like the one that i went to. (well, maybe it is a little cushier than my hard knocks school)
i ran the race and felt great, then i stepped right back into life again. checking out day care centers, trying to put back chemistry knowledge that has leached out of my brain, etc... i will go in to start preliminary work stuff next week. it feels stressful, but i have to remind myself that my boss is just mitch (he would be irritated if he read that)and we're all doing fine and not dead in iraq or daurfor or some god awful place like that. if everything sucks and life gets too complicted, the kids will be late for school and we will eat too much take-out food, and probably drink too much booze and sleep not enough, but that's not so bad. my brain has turned to mush, so it's time to firm it up again.
here is mitch trying to keep up with freddy in the museum mile!